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It's been a little frustrating here. As my last couple of posts have indicated, my husband has really been helping out more, making me feel appreciated, and been really supportive lately. Plus, just two weeks ago, we had our weekend away. However, I find myself wondering, why isn't that enough? I'm still annoyed a great deal of the time. Not specifically at him, but at life in general.

I keep asking myself why? Why aren't I happy when I've got a great husband, wonderful kids, a (relatively) nice house, and (relatively) few problems? I mean, people like me aggravate me to know end. I'm constantly annoyed when I hear people complain and say how stressed they are when their life appears pretty good (this in NOT a good trait in a psychologist, by the way). I'm always thinking, "Gimme a break, you've got it good. Just shut up." Now, so you know, I think that about myself as well.

I am so sick of myself and wonder why my husband isn't sick of me either. I'm tired of hearing myself complain. I'm tired of being annoyed. I definitely don't like being around myself lately, so why does my husband? I guess I'm very lucky and I try to remember that when I'm in these "moods."

So, thanks for listening to my sob story. I just so admire Sunshine Scribe for her journey and wish I had it in me to take one for myself.